Monday, November 23, 2015

Monday Confessions

I confess...that yes, I'm terrible at keeping up not only with this blog but even with Monday Confessions, lately. I blame NaNoWriMo.

I confess...I'm sure I've said this before, but I hate holiday travel.

I's been a really overwhelming month so far, but for some reason I can't decide if I'm looking forward to or dreading it being over. Pin It

Monday, November 9, 2015

Monday Confessions

I confess...I am so, so over the recent weather here in South Carolina. Is it too much to ask for one day where it doesn't rain?

I confess...I'm still immersed in my Gilmore Girls rewatch and realizing that I"m about 70-80% Lorelai and 20-30% Rory.

I confess...I'm keeping up with NaNo so far, but I'm worried that eventually I'll fall behind and not have it in me to catch up. Because honestly that's how this month is going. Sigh. Pin It

Monday, November 2, 2015

Monday Confessions

I confess...I was doing so well, writing in this blog, and then suddenly I wasn't. But to be fair I've been traveling a lot. And now it's NaNo. So we'll see what happens ;)

I confess...I started re-watching Gilmore Girls. From the beginning. For some reason this show always makes me feel better.

I confess...after a long day in the car, all I want is to drink my wine, work on my NaNo novel, and watch more Gilmore Girls. So that is what I'll be doing :) Pin It

Monday, October 12, 2015

Monday Confessions

I confess...I tried going to Fall for Greenville yesterday and realized that I'm pretty much over it. Or at least over the food tent part of it. I ended up grabbing a beer at a bar and walking around with that was great because I didn't have to buy stupid tickets or anything. Who knows if I'll ever go back, though.

I confess...I didn't dislike the Walking Dead season premiere, but I'm maybe kind of underwhelmed by it for some reason? I can't really figure out how I feel.

I confess...speaking of TWD, I was supposed to go to Walker Stalker Con over Halloween and now I'm just super torn about it because I don't really have the money at the moment (lots of unplanned expenses have come up lately), plus other reasons that I'll get into - either in a Geekiary article or a blog entry here - soon enough. I probably won't [be able to?] go, and I both hate that and am relieved about it. Pin It

Thursday, October 8, 2015

Sometimes "Running Late" Isn't Just "Rude and Selfish"

Once in a while I find something to rant about, so I created a fun picture to include in these word-vomit posts ;)

Yes, my Microsoft Paint skills are hella impressive. Now without further ado...

Back in July a man named Greg Savage (who is some big-name recruiter - I'd heard of one of his companies, but not of the man himself) wrote a blog entry about how anyone who is late on a regular basis, be it for work or appointments or outings with friends, is "rude and selfish". Now, I'm going to hope that he takes into account things like someone leaving in plenty of time to arrive early, running into unexpected traffic, and being late...even though I kind of gather that he doesn't believe in such things as unexpected traffic or, you know, emergencies in general. He claims that he's only talking about people who are habitually late, but the examples he gives seem - for the most part - to feature people who kept him waiting just one time before he cut them off.

As someone who was not only painfully shy as a child but who also grew up with parents who were perpetually late, the minute I had a choice in the matter (read: once I had my own transportation) I resolved to always be, if not early, than at least on time. And I stuck with that for my latter teenage years, throughout college, and for most of my adult life. Sure, now and then I was late. No one is perfect. (Well, except, apparently, Greg Savage.) But I honestly can't recall ever being late for work all those years, and if I was late for other things it was due to extenuating circumstances.

And then the past three years happened. As I got dragged further and further down into the rabbithole of depression and anxiety that has dominated my existence essentially since mid-2012, being on time became nearly impossible. I'm not saying it never happens, but I'll be honest - it's rare. And being early? Ha! That's a thing of the past, at least for right now. But I'm not just being "rude and selfish". I'm struggling to get out of bed, or to leave my house, or sometimes I'm even sitting in my car outside my house or in a parking lot somewhere just trying to convince myself that I can do it, I can be at work or at the doctor's office or just generally out in public.

Again, I wasn't always like this. And I *dream* of a time when I'll be my old self and it won't be such a struggle to live life. When my alarm will go off and I'll get up right away and go about my business like a 'normal' person, rather than hitting the sleep button five times while I lay there trying to convince myself that getting out of bed is actually a thing that I have to do if I want to, you know, support myself and stuff. I never used to use that sleep button. In fact I practically loathed people who did (well, living/sleeping with them, anyway). And yeah, sometimes certain people are just lazy about waking up, just like sometimes certain people are just lazy about getting places on time. But sometimes it's not a character flaw - sometimes it's a chemical imbalance telling that person that they're worthless and life is shit and there's just no point.

I applaud others who suffer through this, because I know how difficult it is. I applaud them for arriving wherever they need to be at whatever time they get there because THEY GOT THERE, DAMMIT. And sometimes they don't, or can't, just like sometimes I don't, or can't.

I'd really like to believe that Savage doesn't actually think that every single person who is late on a regular basis is inherently flawed, but the fact that he makes the case that doctors shouldn't ever be late (because you know, heaven forbid there be emergencies in doctors' offices that cause later appointments to get pushed back) leads me to believe that he simply thinks that he and his time are more important than anything else, or anyone else's well being.

Yup, some people who are perpetually late are simply rude and selfish, and maybe Savage has only ever experienced those types of people (though again, based on his examples, I doubt that). But guess what, kids: generalizations are generally bad, and for the most part making them and then announcing them as the end-all and be-all makes you look like an ass.

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Monday, October 5, 2015

Monday Confessions

I confess...last night I had a sudden idea for my NaNo novel this year and now I can't wait to start it...I'll be immersing myself in research this month to prepare :)

I rained practically nonstop all week last week, and all weekend, and it was horrible. I do feel lucky that I live in the foothills of SC rather than the midlands/low country - and I feel bad for those who are suffering as a result of the flooding in those areas :(

I confess...I'm re-reading the Harry Potter series for probably the tenth time (or more). I always seem to forget how much I love these books despite all of their flaws, haha. Pin It

Monday, September 28, 2015

Monday Confessions

I confess...I've been slacking on these Monday Confessions since forgetting to write one up the day I came back from Dragon Con. Which I find pretty sad considering that's like 98% of what this blog is lately. This is my attempt to make sure these posts continue, at the very least. Boring as they are. Sigh.

I confess...I actually cooked something last week, really cooked something, for the first time in ages, and everything came out just fine and the person I cooked for liked it and this made me remember how much I once enjoyed cooking. And I kinda want to get back to that, now.

I confess...I'm taking an accounting course and the first several weeks were a piece of cake, then suddenly last week I just couldn't wrap my head around the homework and it gave me one hell of a headache. So I guess at this point I'll see how this one class pans out before making the final decision to continue taking accounting courses. Pin It