Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Day 8: Satisfaction

Day 08 ⇝ A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life

This one was far easier to answer than I expected it would be.

The moment I felt most satisfied with my life - not *a* moment, THE moment - was when I told Ex that it was over. Us, our marriage, our relationship...over.

Why? Well, because that conversation should have happened so many times before. In fact, it came so close to happening at least twice before...but those times, I wasn't quite ready. So when I was ready, when I did say "I'm sorry, I can't do this anymore, I'm tired of trying so hard and feeling nothing"...when I refused to let him change my mind, when I felt bad but not bad enough to take back those words, it was like this awful oppressive weight had been lifted. I remember that it was summer, hot and dry and dusty and everything was dead or dormant from the lack of rain...but as cheesy as it sounds, all I saw was potential.

I think I can say that I was most satisfied with my life right then because I had worked so hard and pushed myself so much to finally get to that point of letting go. It was both scary and exhilarating and I was proud of myself for making that decision, for knowing that I would stick to it, for refusing to stay in a loveless, sexless, abusive relationship just because leaving would mean hurting him and pissing off certain friends and family members. It was one of very few times in my life that I did something completely for myself...so yeah, why wouldn't I have been satisfied? ;o)


Day 09 ⇝ How you hope your future will be like
Day 10 ⇝ Discuss your first love and first kiss
Day 11 ⇝ Put your iPod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up
Day 12 ⇝ Bullet your whole day
Day 13 ⇝ Somewhere you'd like to move or visit
Day 14 ⇝ Your earliest memory
Day 15 ⇝ Your favorite Tumblrs
Day 16 ⇝ Your views on mainstream music
Day 17 ⇝ Your highs and lows of this past year
Day 18 ⇝ Your beliefs
Day 19 ⇝ Disrespecting your parents
Day 20 ⇝ How important you think education is
Day 21 ⇝ One of your favorite shows
Day 22 ⇝ How have you changed in the past 2 years
Day 23 ⇝ Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous you find attractive
Day 24 ⇝ Your favorite movie and what it's about
Day 25 ⇝ Someone who fascinates you and why
Day 26 ⇝ What kind of person attracts you
Day 27 ⇝ A problem that you have had
Day 28 ⇝ Something that you miss
Day 29 ⇝ Goals for the next 30 days
Day 30 ⇝ Your highs and lows of this month Pin It

2 comments:

  1. Not only satisfying, but super brave. You rock!

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  2. LOVE this post. I remember feeling the same way when I finally got the courage to leave my ex - it was like a giant weight had been lifted and I saw so much potential in my life ahead.

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