As it stands, usually when I post these "blogs from the past" I don't edit them - but I did tone this one down a bit, because it was originally something only a handful of people would see and therefore included language that I...don't use every day, to say the least ;)
The fact is, a lot of people walked *all* over me when I was younger. In high school especially and then once I joined a sorority it was like all of the progress I'd made in that department came to a grinding halt. Even took a step (or few) back. I only have vague memories of what broke me and caused me to write the following, and that's probably a good thing - but I am proud to say that I made this decision, I wrote these words, and somehow I've actually stuck by them. And honestly...that makes me kind of proud :)
I had a revelation today. It's my last semester here at Longwood, and I have decided that if someone or something pisses me off, I'm going to act on it. Every time LU's theater department has treated me like a nobody, every time a person has walked all over me or just been a jerk because they hated their own life in the past couple of years, I have allowed it to happen. I haven't acted upon my well-deserved anger. I've either been too busy or too worried about getting others involved with me in trouble. From now on, you want to know how I feel, I'll outright tell you. You talk crap to me, and you'll get it right back - and you'll wish you hadn't messed with me in the first place.
No, nothing in particular brought this on. I realized last night that something in me, the part that allows me to deal with people and stick up for myself and others who get the shaft, has been awakened.